About Me:
How I found my Soulmate, my Self Love & Happiness
My search for my soul mate began at age twenty seven, the year my mother’s breathe went back to God on the day she turned forty-seven. I decided life was too short to live without passion and finally mustered up the courage to admit to my faithful husband of seven years, my daughter’s father, that I was never in love with him. Ignoring the counsel of my heart to wait, I said yes to his marriage proposal on the rebound after he popped the question at my surprise twenty-first birthday bash.
I just couldn’t stop carrying a torch for my old high school sweetheart, even though we hadn’t spoken in seven years. Ours was a fiery, codependent relationship based on sex and control and was on-again-off-again for five years. It started when I was seventeen and persisted until just before I turned twenty-one, ending without closure.
Tracking him down I called to test the waters and he admitted that he still loved me too. Convinced we were soul mates, in no time we were back together. Our rekindling lasted only a year. When it ended I was sick inside, punishing myself for repeated mistakes and wrecked progress. Jobless and destitute in a small town, I gave sole custody of my then six year old daughter to her dad and moved in with my father, seventy five miles away. By thirty-three I had gone through five more relationships and that was just the beginning.
The short version is that it took more than twenty tries to find Mr. Right, so needless to say I’m an expert on the WRONG way to win a man. Acting the sex-crazed mind blowing teaser who aims to please, with curves and a smart head for business, just isn’t the magic formula ladies, take it from me. Every time I wore that mask I lost.
I played a convincing “I can bring home the bacon, fry it up in a pan, and never ever let you forget you’re a man” kind of girl because this is what I thought men wanted, but all it got me was disappointment.
What was my problem? What was his? Sound familiar?
I started reading the tarot in 1996, desperate to know how a guy I was sleeping with at the time felt about me. I was hoping to get inside his head, little aware I was going to get inside my own. Along with uncovering who I am, I attracted a partner with whom I’m deeply intimate and share a connection beyond this world.
I FINALLY found the acceptance and reverence I craved by learning to first give it to my “self”. Once I started recognizing loss as an opportunity for growth and better things to come and vowed never again to abandon my own heart, everything changed!
The greatest wisdom I have to share is this:
Truth is the path to love and the only thing worth pursuing…
People have consulted me from across the globe concerning their relationships. The #1 question I’m asked is, “When will I find my soul mate?” My answer is always “once you find your self love.” The #2 question is “how do I find my self love?” The purpose of this site is to guide as many seekrs as possible to the answer.
